When I think about the GREATEST thing I have ever done it is a no brainer – Having a child. I find it crazy considering I remember in high school I thought I didn’t even want kids. There are so many things that I wanted to do in life. I wanted to be a cheerleader in junior high, I was, I wanted to be on the pompon squad in high school, I was, I wanted to join a sorority in college, I did, I wanted to work for Disney, I did, I wanted to get married, I did. Of course I thought each of these things was the GREATEST at the time. And then I had my first child. Everything else in life I had done up to that point seemed minuscule in comparison.
Being a mother is an awe inspiring thing. It is unexplainable to people who have not yet had children of their own. What wouldn’t you do for your child? I can’t think of much. From the moment your day starts until it ends your child consumes you. Grant is an early riser. First thing he wants the moment his feet hit the floor is milk. I wake up every morning to this little voice saying, “Milk mama MILK!!!!!” I could go on about the whole day but I will spare us all that. The point is from sun-up til sun-down I am consumed by my son (when I am not at work of course). Being a parent is the hardest job, yet most rewarding, I have ever done. It is also the greatest.
Since being a good parent is such a huge part of most mothers’ lives, I want desperately to be a good parent to my new baby. And I will be in the only way I can in this situation. It is difficult knowing that surgeons, specialists, and nurses, will be his ‘mother’ figures more than myself during the beginning of his life. I am wondering how I will handle handing off one of the “greatest things I have ever done” into the hands of virtual strangers? Hopefully fairly well since I don’t have much a choice in the matter!
You will be a fantastic mum to your new baby, no question - you sound like an amazing mummy already!
ReplyDeleteWhen your baby is born you will 'want' to have everyone take care of it because as a mother you want straight away whats best for your baby and you know that means being made as comfortable as possible. I never thought i'd manage that part either but I did and with quite a bit of strength too. I think of you everyday because I can obviously relate to everything you and your husband face. If anything, you are actually more together than I was at your stage, I hit wall after wall but once faced with the birth I just had to deal with it. We don't know each other but I send you a big hug and know I am here if you ever need to chat or ask anything. Stay POSITIVE POSITIVE POSITIVE Katie xxx
I did a google search for cdh blogs and yours came up. Your last post was written on 3/27 which is the day my precious girl was born with an undiagnosed CDH. We are now living a life we never thought could happen to us either. I started a blog if you are interested.My thoughts are with your family as well.
ReplyDeleteHi Janna! Just wanted you to have my email address: ambernayden@yahoo.com. I'm on Facebook as well. Please do not hesitate to get ahold of me if you need anything at all, questions, concerns, or just need to vent!
ReplyDeleteAmber Burton
Mommy to Abel
LCDH Warrior
10/22/10
You are an awesome mommy already Janna! I have faith in your abilities and everything that you can do :)
ReplyDeleteI am still overwhelmed by the other "cdh moms" and their wonderful support. (Not to overlook the beautiful comment made by cousin Lisa.) These women have truly walked in your shoes.
ReplyDeleteI hate that I have found another expecting CDH mom, but I am glad you have found some support and are going to give the best you can to your new blessing! PLEASE do not hesitate to ask ?s anytime. I look forward to following your journey, and look forward to meeting your precious baby.
ReplyDeleteDevon, Mom of Camden